I've noticed…why it bothers me sometimes when I feel like I am much more often a means to an end, than an end itself?
I understand it, we all are. So, no big deal.
So, what is it within me that this sometimes bothers?
It feels like being the end, at least now and then, would be nice — being the object of something, rather than always the enabler of someone or something else, seems....desirable?
Stating it this way sounds selfish....
But, choosing denial feels like it cuts something off, something that needs to be gotten to.
So, I’m wondering, when this does bother me sometimes, why? What’s going on?
