I've noticed...one of the more persistent tensions I have in my life is over the amount of agency I have. So often there is a 'should' connected to it. But, even when I can get by that, my challenge (and opportunity) is when to direct it versus when to cooperate with it and go with the flow of it.
In other words, when to let it something happen versus when to try to make something happen — sometimes the answer is obvious, but most of the time it isn't (at least, for me).
We seem to have a level of discomfort with the nature of freedom we have. It can be a healthy tension. But, too often we would just rather have someone else tell us what we should do (at least, then, we have someone to blame besides ourselves). Truth be told, though, we are far more free to simply choose than we realize and to carry the burden that brings with it (which may be sub-consciously what we are trying to avoid in the first place).
