I’ve noticed…that I've become more suspicious lately.
I've also noticed that when this happens, something has shifted within me.
Something feels more at risk. I've been having dreams about it.
This should be OK (after all, there's always risk). But, its the relationship I have with that risk, at any given moment, that seems to shifts sometimes. Often, I've observed, this is related to how secure I feel internally, as a person. And, my sense of security is often based on what I feel threatened by...and why.
But, in the end, it is often my awareness of the basis of my sense of security that moves.
This is what a lot of mental health strategies are working with.
It is also a fundamental base-line in basic spirituality.
So, do I really need to be suspicious, when I notice that I am? Probably not. Perhaps, noticing my suspicions can be an indicator that something has shifted within me...and that I need to do something about it.
