Would I Feel Better?

Would I feel better?
Would I feel better if my team had won?
Would I feel better if I knew
the ones I love are really ok, are better than ok?
Would I feel better if I knew
answers to questions which move between niggling and haunting me?
...if I knew I could make a difference or see how?
Would I feel better if...?
Perhaps I should just acknowledge
that I don't feel better today.
And, with patience, not probe too deeply for a why.