Regarding the post on money below, I suspect I may be floating back through this topic from time to time.
Today, for example, I noticed that the 'distance' I referred to there may stem more from what I can do with money when I have it. For example, when I don't have it, my sense of my need remains un-medicated. I am more aware of it. And, when I am more aware of my need, my sense of dependence on God heightens.
I wonder if, actually it might be better to say 'how', I use money to medicate (dare I say, anethesize?) my sense of need. I often don't even recognize that this is what I am doing (note the video referenced in this post, especially at about 15.25) for the substantial ways I join my culture in doing this. So perhaps the distance I feel is really a result of the opportunity offered to me by money to get away from the feeling my 'need' creates in me. Therefore, my turn to God in my need lessens. ...no wonder my observation that often when I have money, I feel more distance with God.
