I’m feeling really flat today…as a person. I felt this coming on yesterday. Perhaps it is because the landscape of my requirement this weekend is fairly open…or perhaps because there is nothing dramatic to anticipate. I feel tempted to find ‘jolt’ in my life. I’m wondering why. I’m reminded of Parker Palmer’s video interview…I am flying too high? Am I trying to? I’m feeling altitude in my attitude. I want to be closer to the ground, to acknowledge the humility I need and treasure, not (I hope) to avoid the pain of crashing, but more to live at my right size…not bigger than I should be. Perhaps this is a healthy kind of 'flat', even if it doesn't feel like it.
…as my emotional energy wanes and I finish even the stumbling nature of this self-identifying writing, the sun has burst into the sky, overcoming the grey of the earlier morning. My spirit is lifting a bit, but warily. What will this day hold?
