I've noticed...that some days I don't feel very seen. It's like I just exist between everything else and no one really notices. On such days, I feel more like an idea (that someone may or may not remember) or a product (that performs certain things, especially the expected things) than I feel like a person. It doesn't really matter what is happening to me or how I am feeling about life, about my life. If I want to, I could make a fuss and require some kind of attention from others; otherwise it feels like no one would even notice.
I'm not saying I am alone with this feeling (that others don't feel the same thing), but it also seems that there is something in me that wants to mute what I am feeling by even making this observation (that others experience this, too). The fact that we all may feel this, from time to time, isn't really the point, is it?
Invisibility is not a good feeling, but it is also likely not one that is as bad as it seems. It may, in fact, create something — like space for us to consider what it is that we actually desire, not to mention the various and sundry ways we often go about procuring it.
In our age of social media, such compensating efforts can really create an equally false phenomenon. Do we really need to draw attention to ourselves? Or, is chasing that really an endlessly unsatisfying kind of futility.
What is it, then, that we really desire...besides being seen?
