What is on my mind today?
Well, what isn't?
In many directions right now, I feel a foreboding sense of existential crisis.
And, when I stare at it (rather than just feel it), I remember things that I know.
In our humanity, feelings and knowing go together, in spite of when they feel like they don't. They inform each other.
And, so, I know that such feelings are what they want you to feel. Wait, who is they?
The system; the world. The powers of it. They don't want you to feel peace. That keeps you dependent on them. I know this.
But, I still feel it....
Breathing helps. But, it doesn't suppress it fully.
Crisis has a way of putting you face to face with other questions — like what you ultimately are depending on. Crisis reminds you that you are not enough on your own. Crisis puts you in touch with a larger reality, that is needed for survival (if not well-being).
How does having to trust in something bigger than myself put me in touch with something I tend to otherwise dismiss?
Does that change the crisis (probably not much)? Does that change something else and how I relate to it?
Yes.
